7th of July 2009 – GMT+8, because of Love

I woke up this morning, thinking of just going for an hour or so swimming with my swimming buddy… I didn’t go because I was too lazy and I woke up late.  I also need to meet my highschool friend somewhere in Harbourfront.  I’m living in Singapore and still loving it here, mentioned this because I didn’t mention this on my previous blog and introduction.  Was a bit excited maybe because I was expecting that she’ll complement me on how I look now.  Selfish but true.  I was a nerdy looking guy in highschool, maybe until now, but there are so much things that changed on me, looks and everything.  Moving on, it was a typical “touring my tourist friend thing”.  Only 6 hours of tour, so we ended up in Sentosa.  Rode the Luge and skyride, went to Palawan beach but unfortunately, they’re renovating it and didn’t manage to take a picture of the “Souther most part of Asia”, which I’m still wondering if they’re damn or stupid to put it there and caption it which is definitely not true.  It was quite and usual touring experience but suddenly, my sister called me.  And shouted at me “You’re wife is going to give birth!  Call our house! Now!” , with the perfect exclamation mark as how I typed it!  I called our house and my mum answered, and told me that we’re going to bring your wife to the hospital…  Talked to my wife and told me the same thing.  I was still relaxed because I can’t do anything and even if I panic or get excited, can’t do anything, I’m 3 hours plane away from home.  We continued touring my friend and played some video games.   Had some chat with my highschool friends with my highschool crush.  Then it was 5.40pm and it was time to go.  She needs to go back to KL. 

Now, exactly 11:53PM, same date.  Still 6th of July.  I called my mum 30 minutes ago to check her and my wife, I feel bad because I’m not at home and I’m not right beside her.  And worse because I was really cruel to her today and for the past few days.  Maybe I’m not used to girls and I hate everytime she acts like she’s a girl and act like she know everything, which she always say that she doesn’t.  Maybe that’s how she talks.  Regardless of this difference, I still do love her.

I feel quite excited, scared and I’m looking forward on her giving birth to my son.  Hope everything is ok, especially my son.  I feel guilty because I gave a lot of pressure and threw very cruel words to my wife when she was still pregnant…  I feel sorry for that, but everytime I look back, I can’t imagine how I ended up like this to her.  Is it me or is it her… Well, I’m just going to throw it all out now and dump the doubts I’ve on her, I’ll love her and also my son because I know that we’re going to be happy and I know that we”ll feel another level of happiness that we’ve never felt before when we were still alone and single.  Everything is going to be fine…

~ by anonymous88 on July 6, 2009.